My superheros in my life! Mummy and Papa

Hmm just came back from wet market with mummy. It has been a long tme since i follow my mama to wet market. Actually come to think about it, this year i really dont really feel the chinese new year mood. Maybe because prior to that, too many things had occupied my mind liao.

I truly enjoyed shopping with mama, cos indeed this is my language of love to her. By going market with her, she will feel loved hee, although she will never say that. But i know spending time and acts of service is her language of love. Hee.

I remembered she once mentioned when i was very young, that when i am old, i will not want to follow my parents around. But till now, I still managed to find time to go shopping with parents. Hehe indeed it is so fun to go with them. Cos haaha the attention will be upon me. Nothing beats going shopping with papa and mummy. Cos its so FUN!

Unlike previous years, this year mummy and I did not go to Chinatown to do shopping. I remembered we can shop as early as 10am all the way until 8pm. Hahaha this is equilavent to a day's work. hahah mummy loves to go before shop open, so that we can have the whole mall to ourselves hee.

I felt so loved by papa and mummy. They are always so there for me. For instance, two days agon, I sms my papa about a dead cockroach in my room and ask him whether he can clear for me. He just did it without any qualms. Heheh I am always so scared of cockroaches in my room and when i see one, I will just go all out to smash it. I used to be so scared that i will stare at it and pray, or when papa is still awake, i will shout for him. Maybe thats why i got no problem praying for anything in my life, cos i am scared of a lot of things and only Him i can look for.

Hehe indeed my parents are so CUTE! They always do funny things and will make all of us luff. Hahah pretty entertained. Hehe i remembered, there was one time, when we were all watching a movie, papa could not understand the show, he just yawned so loudly in the middle of the theatre and commented loudly saying, wah beh sian si! hahah that made all of us luff. Only our papa will do this kind of thing.

Hahah and when i visit the market with my papa and mummy, I always feel that i am in some kind of battlefield. Hahah these folks of mine are so efficient and productive as though fighting a war and they have to stock up rations in the fastest manner. Hahah they will split the tasks and then both will go on separate ways. Hahah never see anyone as efficient even buying stuffs. Then they will meet at the nearest coffeeshop to have breakfast. Hahah. i feel only my papa and mummy will do that.This makes me even want to adore them. Cos they are so CUTE!

My papa and mummy are realli wonderful gifts from Laopa. I am so blessed in this family. So blessed to have papa and mummy. Who will expect that we went through such turbulent times before. Yeah therefore i treasure them so much. Indeed, these 8 years of being a Christian, Laopa has taught me so much how to shower love to papa and mummy. I am still learning but i truly pray that they will know His love because no matter what He will never leave nor forsake them.

What can I offer to them? Except praying for them. I love them so much. If i love them so much, how much more does my heavenly Laopa love them? Hhaha this is something which i cannot fathom.

Praise God for my papa and mummy!

Facing Trials of many kinds

Hmmm....... still facing persecutions from different sides and i am still learning to cope. Had an argument with my loved one and for the first time, i was able to sit through the whole argument and hear her out. Everytime, I will just storm off to my room and avoid the conflict altogether. Long story, i shall not include the details, if interested pls ask Sharon. I thank God for being patient to hear her out and what can i say, i just told her Jesus taught me to learn to love her.
Seriously not easy to overcome this, as i sat there, i was crying bitterly in my heart. Simply because it was never my intention to make her even hate Jesus. In fact, i always know there is nothing i can offer up, because i am just that pathetic five loaves and 2 fishes who wants to see her being loved by someone who can offer a greater love much more that i do. Yeah what can i do? but to continue to stand in the gap , until one day she really tasted this everlasting goodness.

Yeah sent an sms to them this morning, to tell them how much i love them. She replied with a heartwarming message which made me so touched.

James 1 ( from the message)
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. 3You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. 4So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.

becos of this promise, that gave me the strength to live each moment victoriously. May you be comforted by my sharing, knowing that He reigns!

Been... veri tired lately. And when i am tired and stress, i will not have appetite and when i don realli have appetite, hahah guess what i will eat less.. and i have shed some fats off liao. Thank God.

A sister just confronted me not long ago. Thank God we managed to thrash it out and win win situation. i know we still love each other a lot. But she pointed out that many gers did not know how to minister to me. I guess is due to the fact that i always appear to be veri strong and zhai in front of people. Hmmm,,, actual fact, i am never the strong person and desires so much for people to sayang me. Hmmm.. i guess its my appearance and my mannerism that give people that idea.

Hmmm i know i am realli like my spiritual mama cos we are both veri strong. Hahah we may cry so much the day before but look perfectly alright the next day. i still want to thank God for how He has wired me this way. That gave me the ability to uplift people who are down. And it is also becos of this impression that people have, I cling onto Laopa even more becos everyone thinks i am strong and kinda left me out.

However, i do not blame anyone who is seeing me this way, cos no matter how jialat our circumstances are, He never fail to work for the good to those who love Him. Yeah becos of this promise, i can still survive and know i am so precious in His sight.

But still i pray that my precious sisters around me will not feel belittled by me. Cos it was never my intention, to flaunt my "zhainess" and belittle the rest.

Indeed I consider myself seriously no big deal at all, cos i am just a person with a broken spirit, it was Him who died for me, that granted me the grace to live day by day. ( yeah i was just sobbing yesterday, but today i am filled with a glimpse of Hope again, cos He made all things new!)

All Glory be unto Him!

"You do not desire any sacrifice or offering but a broken spirit and a contrite heart, you will not despise."

May you see this broken life and feel uplifted by the Lord's faithfulness and hope!

my beloved precioussss...... at Ah Si birthday.. aren't we pretty? hahaha

Still Believing for ah ma salvation!

Recently, Dylan gave me a book. It is a prayer guide for 100 gateway cities. hmmm guess it is not be coincidence that he gave me a 10/40 window book. Just reminded me of my mission calling. I guess through Dylan, the Lord wants me to realli be geared towards intercession. Ever since, my grandma's mega stroke relapse, i have been praying more and more due to the urgency of her salvation. I am thankful that the Lord has blessed me with boldness and faith to press on even though i do not see the results.

I witness the power of prayer and effective prayer with a broken spirit and a contrite heart will move Laopa's hand. Truly the Lord does not delight in sacrifice but only a broken spirit and a contrite heart he will not despise.

I still want to believe that when i pray, God's hand will be upon my ah ma. Today, she is being transferred to Bright vision, a buddhist community hospital. I truly pray no matter what God will intervene in any way to soften her heart and turn to Him. Hmmm..... still clinging to Him and believing in His breakthrough.

I am glad i am still alive today. Truly, I thank God for all my sisters and bros in Christ who encouraged me to pray when i am so down. I am glad there are always someone around to tell me not to give up believing and praying.

Though facing fierce persecutions from family, I still want to believe ah ma will be saved. All i hope is that God will give me more strength and faith to tide over this season of trial. I also prayed that my heart will always be tender towards HIm.

Today so far has not been very smooth. I am a little frustrated over things at work. Still struggling for the Lord's joy and strength to be upon me. I need his love so much. Still I still want to give thanks for today. Becos simply this is the day that He has made and I will rejoice. Hmmm... just feel so tired over the burden i have to bear. Frustrated over the fact that people dont understand me. Realli tired over the things i am doing. I wish to change a new environment where my personality will fit in. Is this a test or is it time for me to move out ? I really do not know. All i know is that I better cling on to Laopa and start praying, before the negative thots get a hold of me.

Laopa. Taskete!

Kairos moment for my FAMILY SALVATION

SO many things have happened to me the past one week or so. My ah ma was just being diagnosed as critical condition on Sunday. When I heard that, I was filled with tears, went back to my room and knelt before God and prayed for His mercy upon ah ma. Simply because she has not received Jesus into her life. I told the Lord I could not bear to see her leave without knowing Jesus. I prayed and prayed.

When we reached hospital, i was strickened with grief by the fact that my ah ma could not recognise anyone of us, not even my dad. I continued to pray and actually share to ah ma how Jesus love her.

At night, I was laying hold of Laopa for ah ma, i have never felt so much urgency for a person's salvation in my life, truly engaging spiritual warfare prayer to rise up in the authority of Jesus to stop any form of evil plot against my ah ma. Ah Ma is so close to my heart, I truly cant bear to see her not being saved. I kept on stood in the gap for ah ma, and actually activated all my beloved precious bros and sisters to pray for my ah ma. Becos i truly believe that when 2 or more gathered and pray , the Lord's hand will be moved.

The next day, I received an sms from my sister that ah ma condition has improved. In her sms, she mentioned that ah ma can recognise her and was full of joy when she saw my sister. Phew! Thank God. Indeed my God has never left us nor forsake us. Simply awed by God's grace for her.
Come to think about it, this is the third time my ah ma suffered from stroke relapse and admitted to the hospital. Each time, God never failed to preserve her life, simply because Laopa love her so much, Laopa's grace is overflowing.

Day after day, my ah ma condition improved. Now she can eat and yesterday she was drinking milo! The doctor told us that her critical condition is over. It is indeed God's miracle! All glory be to Laopa forever and ever.

Yesterday i couldnt help interceding and worshipping Laopa for 3 hours because He has granted me more faith to dare to stand in the gap for my whole family. (Throughout the whole 3 hours, I was singing praises, giving thanks and interceding so much. I felt so much peace and joy soaking in His presence.) I believed with all my heart that all of them will be saved. i believe the evil's plan is completely thwarted and destroyed because Laopa reign!

I am simply and certainly so awed by His grace and mercy. The lord told me that now is the kairos moment for my family. Many of my family members will be ushered into the Kingdom of God. i want to claim this promise and continue to stand in the gap for them.

Got a chance to testify His love with my aunt yesterday and I thank God for that too.

Truly I only learn one thing again, The Lord's faithfulness! How can I deny Him? He is so real! I have once again witness the power of intercession! It is indeed awesome. When christians pray, the evil one has to flee.

All Glory be unto Jesus!

Hahaha my KL photos...... hmmm... all so pretty hahahaha
Estee precious, Secured precious and mission goer aka ah juan precious at Starhill Gallery

My maiden "bouncer" experience

Yesterday i had my maiden bouncer experience. Initially i am a little apprehensive and sian over this role given to me. But after yesterday, I finally beginning to grasp a little meaning of why Laopa allow me to go into this.

Just when everybody is worshipping and immersing into the Holy Presence of God, we were asked to be on guard and alert at all times, to ensure the safety for all of them. Indeed this is a little sacrifice that I have to make. However, compared to that huge sacrifice that Jesus made, this means nothing. Jesus is forever on guard 24 hours 7 days a week, to be there interceding for us and protecting us from the harm.

I am thankful the Lord brought me this revelation.

I am glad i can give thanks for this role. I am glad that throughout yesterday, I was filled with the joy and peace. One brother, actually came up to me that he pointed out I was the only security person who smiles. I truly thank God for the security He has granted me, that I can fear no evil. This brought me joy and peace while serving.

As usual, there was one time when pastor prayed for the nations, as different countries' flags was brought forward, two flags caught my greatest attention. It is the Cambodia and Japan flag. The Lord has always planted a heart of compassion for this two nations. I think that one day he will bring me to the fields to serve.

When pastor was praying for the nations, as usual tears began to stream down from my cheeks, I am simply touched by Laopa's heart beat for Asia. I know that I am really called to be a missionary. It has been 4 years since the Lord revealed to me my mission calling at the St Andrew Cathedral. And I know He is still preparing me for the day when He will send me out to serve the nations. Haha maybe because of this, one of my criteria for the my futute mate is to believe in the Antioch of Asia calling and given a missionary calling.

I still pray that I will not miss the mark and will truly press on until He fulfilled that destiny in me. Hmmm .... but i also hope to see my parents saved before i am sent off.