Reviving a lost dream Number 2 box office hit

Sorry for not able to blog... okie here is my number 2 box office hit... which has a story behind it..

I used to have a dream for God. That is to use drama as an evangelistic tool to serve the nations and reach out to youths. I remembered it was 2003 that I told God my dream because I saw the power of drama as a tool to touch youths. And my desire is to serve full time in ministry hoping to use these gifts to further His kingdom.

By God's grace, I was given lots of platform to do evangelistic performing arts events. But each time, be it looking at a script, or thinking of how to direct my casts or planning the nitty gritty stuffs that goes into the event, I often thought to myself that if only I can do this full time.

My desire to serve full time in ministry never really extinguished in fact this desire grew stronger each day. Although there was a strong desire to really want to serve full time, doors were shut right at my face.

Over the next two years, I tried all means to try to get to where I want but to discover the doors were truly shut. As time passed by, the dream grew smaller and smaller and further and further which it became so out of reach.

Although deep in my heart, I knew that God work for the good to those who love him, and mentors around me were telling me to hang on there, those times of breaking were unbearable.

I guess at that point in time, God was really preparing me and at the same time teaching me about His faithfulness. In fact, truly He is not looking for people with talents or gifts but a surrendered heart who understood His faithfulness. Who understood apart from Him, he/she can do nothing. With that person, He can fully entrust to do His will.

It was only In December 2005, the Lord gave me a verse, " until now, you have not asked anything in my name, ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find" And another verse that also kept ringing in my head was, delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart.

I knew in my heart the Lord wants to bless me with my desires. I began to pluck up all my courage to boldly ask God to bless me. I told Him my desire is to be blessed with a job i fully enjoyed. And the job that the Lord knows I will fully enjoyed is to do full time ministry yet making use of my giftings and talents.

Then it was another six months of waiting and praying for this " enlarged territory" Indeed God's plans are always the best. Due to my limited knowledge of Christian organisations in Singapore, I sent 3 times to a same organisation that I wanted most. But to no avail. Nobody replied me and again the door was shut.

Thank God over the two years, I have learnt that if God opens a door, no one can close it and if He close a door, no one can open it. So it was really holding on to believe that He will bless me with an enlarged territory. Frankly, I struggled, because it was the season of trusting, rising up in faith but yet there were no signs of what is ahead of me. There were so many times, I cried and ask God when?

Just when I gave up the total idea of applying for my preferred organisation,On June 2006, I received an sms from a manager from a christian organisation that asked me for a job interview. I have totally forgotten over this position that I applied for and had to check out the website for more information.

To my surprise, the interview went on smoothly and I was shortlisted for second round of interview and after the second round I was being offered the job. Frankly, I wasnt very excited when I got the job simply because I really did not know what to expect but still I truly thank God for His favours.

Never did I expect on my first day of work, I was told that one of my profiles were actually organising a purely evangelistic event to reach out to youths! And the manager whom i reported to, have a heart to reach people for Christ as well. As she was telling me about hoping to market and brand the company performing arts events to serve the nations and use it as a platform to do outreach, i became so excited. It was then I was remembered my dream in 2003.

Overall, I was so awed by the Lord's faithfulness. In fact, He is a God who remembers. I have long forgotten about my dream but He revived my dream. All I can say He has the best plans. Looking back, the season of breaking was necessary, all my past job experiences were necessary to prepare and equip me to further His kingdom. Now I got exactly what I prayed for, a job that does performing arts events to reach out to youths and reach them for Christ.

Are you trusting God for something or breakthroughs that has not come to pass? And often you ask God how long more?

Dont lose heart, because we serve a faithful God. He is holding your hand and He promise to not leave you nor forsake you. I am convinced It is not our might or strength but it is His faithfulness that the blessings of Jabez be manifested in our lifes.

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Hebrews 12:1-3