My first few days living on God's provision.

Thank God i am still surviving. Thank God for all that He has blessed me so far. Actually, I am glad i made the faith move, that is to leave my previous company and embark on a faith journey, put it simply it is a "donno what is ahead" journey. Haha, God is good and faithful.

I actually felt led by Holy Spirit to send out a job application to the company that i desired to be in. Previously i have sent out two applications to the same company. This time round the Lord actually impressed upon my heart to send directly to the Director of the department.

Hmmm initially when i heard the voice of Holy Spirit telling me to send out, i was filled with fear and apprehension. Simply because i was fearful of rejection. Still i decided to obey the voice of HS and just took the step to send out.

So on last tuesday, the day which i was serving my last day, i actually sent out the application.

For the rest of the week, i was filled with mixed feelings, on one hand i know i just want to honour God and step out of my comfort zone but on the other hand, i was filled with fears of not able to find a job. Still, i recognised it is the plot of the evil one to discourage me of not trusting God.

Just when i least expected, a pastor approached me on Sunday and asked me would i be interested to be involved in a ministry which deals with secondary school students who are quite at risk. Hmmm,. she is actually the hirer for the job i applied previously to the company. Hmmm... and the position she is looking for requires serving in the ministry she challenged me in. She asked me to try out for the camp to have a feel of what it is like.

Since i have previously told God i will give him a blank cheque and allow Him to lead me to wherever He wants me to go, i took up the offer. So tomorrow, i am actually going over to the camp briefing and see how the Lord lead from there.

But surprisingly, shortly after i also found out that actually the program/ministry they are in, i have actually experience it before. I was doing a favour for a friend who asked me to help to stand in to facilitate two creative workshops. I still remember that i felt quite defeated the first time i went to facilitate the workshop, simply because the boys in the class ended up in a fight.

But by God's grace, i was doing well for the second time, I still remembered i was teaching them on their self worth and significance. I know that many of these kids just lacked the knowledge that they are very siginificant and precious in God's sight.

Seriously, I still do not know where God is leading me. But i know for sure out of my comfort zone, because i never really thought i could try out for secondary school ministry. Haha.. this journey is getting more and more uncomfortable but i guess also getting more exciting as i await for my provider to unfold His plans for me.

All I know I have surrendered and He have to guide me. God was actually presenting a choice for me to see if this is a ministry that i would want to go in. Hmmm since He allowed this door to be opened, I will be going in to see see look look. Knowing that He is still holding my hand to walk into the place He called me to be.