My week

Its been a long time since i blogged. Was at KL a week ago and we had encountered too many adventures. However, i really do have a good time chatting with Sharon and Estee and not to forget our beloved Malaysian friend steven.
This KL trip has been a whole lot of adventure for all of us. Stalked by 3 fierce looking men, 3 middle eastern men haha and checked by Malaysian and Singapore custom. Hahah indeed we were luffing when the cisco people were checking us. Cos of so many trips to Malaysia , never have we experience custom thorough check. It is indeed a interesting and unique experience.

Indeed this week is my rest week, I just cant be bothered to do a lot of stuffs because i just want to rest. I guess i am so tired over the "worldly" stuffs. Just feel like running away from all the responsiblities entrusted to me. But i know no matter where i run to, i will be forced to face all these realities again. Indeed reality bites! Watched two movies, one totally cheezy crappy show, Perhaps Love and the other Chronicles of Narnia.

I am simply amazed by C S Lewis. There were so many touching moments in the show, the scene when Azlan sacrificed himself for Edward's innocence and White witch brutal character. It just reminded me of Jesus grace and Evil one is all out to steal, kill and destroy. I was tearing badly at Azlan sacrifice it just make me reminded Jesus cruxifixion. He did not deserve it, yet he knew by doing so , he can free us from condemnation of sin. He took the plunge. But the best part is the story doesnt end there. He ressurrected.

I guess in every ger heart, we always imagine ourselves to be kept in a very tall tower and desire one day, our prince charming will brave through all adversities to bring us out of the tower. Hmmm i love to live in this fairy tale. Never had i thought that one day this fairy tale will become a reality. Actually, the fact is our prince charming has already appeared even before we decided to believe in Him.

He came and die so that we can be set free.
I wish i will truly grasp the whole meaning of this grace and unconditional love for me.
I truly wish that many gers will meet this prince charming.

Indeed he is far greater than any earthly man who can offer to us. How I desire to be so consumed over his love and be that single minded daug

Draw me so close so close to Him, How can i live a day without Him?

Finished all my X mas shopping

I wonder will sharon react like this, when she see my xmas present for her? ahahahahaha



Xmas is coming.. I just finished all my xmas shopping yesterday and when I was calculating my costs, it amount close to 300 dollars. Indeed i thank God for my spirit of giving haha... I love to give to people. I guess this is my language of love towards others. I love to shop so much.... hahah especially when I am buying stuffs for my loved ones. Shopping for xmas gifts has always been one of the mega projects for me. The process involves idea generation, procurement, to packaging right up to giving out the presents. I will carefully choose each item to be presented to my loved ones, ensuring that it matches their taste and preference. I love to look at the joy written on their faces when I hand them their presents. The sense of satisfaction is immeasurable. Hee.. still thank God for this spirit of giving.

I cant wait to go home and wrap all my presents and write my cards. i do hope each of my precious will like the presents that i give them. Esp sharon, hahah her present is so CUTE!

This is indeed such a blessing to be able to bless others!

Blessings blessings!!!

As I have shared from my previous posts that this year is a year of brokeness. Hehe if i can collect all my tears, i think buckets of tears will be collected.
Hmmm.... yesterday, as usual, when pastor gave an altar call, my heart pounded very fast. For some who do not know, everytime when my heart beat very fast, it is always an indication from Laopa to receive some stuffs or to release a word or revelation. Haha... so as usual i needed to go down and receive. When I moved forward and began to kneel down, despite my knee injury from my fall, those tears that I have held back for so long, began to stream down. It was then followed by a series of weeping and wailing. Hmmm..... only Laopa knew how broken i was. God divinely placed Pheng, Yongsi, Gina to pray for me. Surprisingly, they were actually supposed to be consolidators, but due to the fact that they were not wanted by anyone, they came over to pray for me. Indeed Laopa knew my heart so well. I was just telling God that ai yah, since all my precious ones are going to be consolidators, no one will pray for me. But Laopa just bless me with their prayers. I seriously needed that.
Prior to this whole dramatic episode, i was feeling extremely down because i felt so lonely journeying through all the ups and downs in 2005. I felt that my beloved precious sss do not care for me. But receiving the heartwarming hug from Ah si, Gina's tears and Ah peng and sharon's compassionate look, overide all the negative thoughts in my heart.

I am so thankful to have Ah Peng, as my spiritual mama. I am so blessed by her. She revealed to me that God has not forgotten about the promise He made to me. The Lord sees my greatest desire, that is for my gers to truly grow in the Lord and my passion for drama. Indeed more and more I am beginning to see that the Lord is blessing my gers in the area of performing arts, the very thing I desired to do. I am so proud of all of them, My ding ding, veline, Janice and Madeline.

Truly without God's grace this year, I could have backslided and leave my gers and become a very bitter person. Ah Pheng pointed out one thing to me, despite all these brokeness I went through, the Lord still enabled me to hold so tightly to Him. And as I began to surrender and die to myself, I became more alive in Him.

For the very first time, my gers gathered and prayed for me, asking the Lord to bless me. I was so touched by their love for me. Thank God for that mann!

For a moment, I really thought that Laopa had forgotten about me when I witnessed all the people being blessed. But now, I chose to believe that the Lord will bless me in His due time. And I prayed that my gers will catch this kairos moment.

Rainbow Room

This is the "rainbow room" i was talking about at my previous post. Isnt it cool? i seriously wish to stay in here mann.. That green over shape thingy hung on the wall on the far right, Meiqi was realli bugging me to buy that... and apparently she gave it a name, its the "sinus bag" hahahaha... want to find out why? Ask her.,... too gross to share here.....

At Xiu hui's baptism and sharon's B day.... a load of Precious.sss and Mother of all precious.... Pheng!!!
26/11/2005

郭彦均

Hmmmm another pic of him....

Rainbow Castle

I was so happy because i went to Ikea today. I am so glad that i bought my favourite quilt set its orange colour. Hmmm.. my bud qiqi , was so bored when she was at ikea. But i was simply mesmerised by the design and aesthetics of the furniture. Its so beautiful. I truly love to go Ikea and it always brightens my mood. It always instills certain creativity in me. For example, I was looking at one of those mirrors and i was thinking perhaps i can paste my beads on the edge of my mirror to give it a different look.
I enjoyed going to the children's room. This is because i am always so intrigued and amazed by the colourful and cute furniture. One room really caught my eye, it has this rainbow tent covering the whole bed. The bed is covered with rainbow bed sheets, comforter as well as rainbow pillows. It is such a beautiful room. I always hope to stay in one of those rooms. Hehe... and if i ever get my own house next time, I truly desire the whole house to be filled with different colours. With walls of orange, green, blue, pink, red and furniture with rainbow colours. Hmmm.....just the thought of it, will make me feel so happy and joyful.

Come to think about it, if i ever got a say what would my heavenly home look like, I also want them to be with multi colours. Wouldnt that be great? Hmmm... I am sure Laopa loves me so much and my dream will come true one day.

Yah i always dream that my heavenly home will be like a castle as you push open those big tall gates( those you see in movies), there will be a big banqueting table full of all the junk food you can find, hahah tubs of ice cream with tons of flavours, durian, coffee, strawberry, sticky chewy chocolate, rum and raisins.... tons of potato chips, tons of chocolates, tons of sweets with different colours. ( just like the table i saw in the Peter pan movie) Hmmmm I will seriously feel so loved by Laopa if my heavenly home is filled with all these. Not to forget tons of Japanese dorama, HK movies and Taiwanese "ou xiang ju" Wah..... ohh mann my life in Heaven will then be non stop action of being a couch potato.
Anyway by that time we will all be made perfect, perhaps i will not even crave for all these anymore. Hahah.....who knows.

By thinking my heavenly home to be filled with so much goodies, isnt it make it easier to focus on the things that are eternal not temporal. Hahah..... because in heaven i can eat all kinds of junk and never fall sick or not having to watch my weight all day mann. Haha...if all this is true, I cant wait to go heaven. Hahah.... Laopa have mercy on me if these are all crap.....ahahah

Chasing the Dragon

Recently a brother passed me a book titled Chasing the Dragon, and when I began to read, I got so addicted to it.
I am just so amazed how a person can gather so much faith and do Laopa's will.
Live among the drug addicts, in and out of opium dens, gambling dens, prisons... just to share Christ with them.
Testimonies after testimonies of people completely free from their bondages to drugs and many others. The best part... is when the lord's boldness led her to talk to the triad leaders and share Christ with them. And the Lord's faithfulness became so evident in her life that each person she shared to , he/she was touched by the Lord and received Jesus into his/her life.
Every single page and sentence is filled with touching testimonies of how prostitutes, drug addicts, triad members were transformed and became the Lord's witnesses. I felt so encouraged by this woman's passion to serve the poor.
She simply took with her $10 in her pocket, took a boat and served among the most rejected and broken hearted people. Year after year, she faithfully ploughed and sow into the many broken hearts for , Despite countless persecution that she faced, she perservered with the Lord's strength.
Never a moment, the Lord failed to be with her and grant her REST.

One word simply summed it all. The Lord's Grace is sufficient for her!

Sufficient to drive this woman to continue to suffer with the poor and live in the worst living conditions,
Sufficient to stand in the gap for the broken hearted and testify His goodness to all.
Sufficient to be faithful and continue to perservere despite persecutions.
Sufficient to extend grace and compassion to the rejected and abandoned lot.
Sufficient to rise above difficult circumstances.

All Because He died for her on the cross..... and blot out all her sins! This gave her a chance be so alive again!

Out of a sudden, I just felt so blessed so blessed that I knew her God. And I simply amazed by His unconditional and sacrificial love for me.

This love that found me at my deepest pit. This love that will never fade away even though how much I have let Him down.

How can I simply live a day without Him?

Blessed are the poor in Spirit for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.

Thinking,,, season

Recently too many events have happened in my life. Indeed when i reflect back this whole 2005 , i only learnt one thing that is the LORD'S FAITHFULNESS. Truly this year has been a year of ploughing, pruning and disciplining. But I am so thankful, what can I say each time i wanted to give up , felt so defeated and felt so hopeless of circumstances around me, Laopa never fail to be there for me. What can I say, but to just be so thankful of His grace and mercy. Indeed, I was talking to one of my beloved daughter Janice, the Lord even led me reminded of his mercy and grace for my gers. Truly not only have i grown, nothing beats of seeing your gers growing in Laopa's love. Oh mannn..... "gou" liao, becos truly that has always been my prayer when they first enter into cell.
I remember year 2004, at one of the tabernacle, Laopa gave me Ps 89, the psalms that talked about Lord's faithfulness to Israelites. At that point of time, I could not really received the Psalms. I only have a faint idea that the Lord is teaching me faithfulness for coming 2005. Truly now looking back, I just simply amazed at His saving grace and faithfulness for this year. Never a moment He failed to grant me peace when I was in my most broken moments.

Recently, a verse has been ringing in my head, it took me quite some time to believe in this verse. The verse goes, Until now you have not ask anything in my name, ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find. It has been just a long time since I heard this verse. I am just so amazed that it is as though Laopa throwing me a blank cheque and ask me to fill as many figures as I want.

After being in the wilderness for so long, I have learnt so much contentment compared to the past. I am so contented and surrendered with what Laopa has blessed me. But time has come Now to claim that promise God has gladly bestowed upon me. Hahaha... mai tu liao mann! Sharlene, I said to myself.

I told the Lord, ok I am going to boldly proclaim what I want. Hahaha.. I truly want to believe and believe that indeed year 2006 will be a year of Harvest, So much more broken hearted will be added into Laopa's kingdom. Indeed the moment is NOW. This is our window of opportunity. God is writing that blank cheque to Singapore and asking us to fill the numbers. And I believe the more faith we have, the more we can see ushered into the kingdom.

Isnt that amazing and exciting? I felt so excited mann!!

My greatest prayer is that all my gers will rise to the destiny Laopa has blessed them becos i know Laopa cant wait to bless them. And the gers that will come into my tribe, will truly understand the Lord's saving grace and mercy. Becos nothing beats that. I claim all these in Laopa's name!

Guo Yan Jun!!!!!

My new idol.,... Isnt he cute????? he has a twin brother! But still nothing beats IEESU KIRISUTO!

My First Post

Finally,, I decided to create my own blog. Hmmm... this blog is specifically created for the sake of my utmost precious gers in my life and not to forget my beloved PRECIOUS.... and my 2 beloved buddies Blinkblink and QIqi. Yah after much conviction hahah, I see the great and mighty benefits of having a blog. Heheh... not easy cos i am veri slack when it comes to update about my life. i guess i still love to talk and see face to face. So its a big STEP to blog hee....
To my beloved precious and my gers, Ding, Janice, Veline and MAdeline... I hope this will help build our relationship when you get to know your mama better. oKie enough for the first blog.... haha i finally mustered more discipline to do this. But gers that doesnt mean, that you stop sending journal to me. Please still send those journals to me! thanks!

To whoever reading this, May The Lord bless and bless you with abundance of Love Joy Peace!