Blessings blessings!!!

As I have shared from my previous posts that this year is a year of brokeness. Hehe if i can collect all my tears, i think buckets of tears will be collected.
Hmmm.... yesterday, as usual, when pastor gave an altar call, my heart pounded very fast. For some who do not know, everytime when my heart beat very fast, it is always an indication from Laopa to receive some stuffs or to release a word or revelation. Haha... so as usual i needed to go down and receive. When I moved forward and began to kneel down, despite my knee injury from my fall, those tears that I have held back for so long, began to stream down. It was then followed by a series of weeping and wailing. Hmmm..... only Laopa knew how broken i was. God divinely placed Pheng, Yongsi, Gina to pray for me. Surprisingly, they were actually supposed to be consolidators, but due to the fact that they were not wanted by anyone, they came over to pray for me. Indeed Laopa knew my heart so well. I was just telling God that ai yah, since all my precious ones are going to be consolidators, no one will pray for me. But Laopa just bless me with their prayers. I seriously needed that.
Prior to this whole dramatic episode, i was feeling extremely down because i felt so lonely journeying through all the ups and downs in 2005. I felt that my beloved precious sss do not care for me. But receiving the heartwarming hug from Ah si, Gina's tears and Ah peng and sharon's compassionate look, overide all the negative thoughts in my heart.

I am so thankful to have Ah Peng, as my spiritual mama. I am so blessed by her. She revealed to me that God has not forgotten about the promise He made to me. The Lord sees my greatest desire, that is for my gers to truly grow in the Lord and my passion for drama. Indeed more and more I am beginning to see that the Lord is blessing my gers in the area of performing arts, the very thing I desired to do. I am so proud of all of them, My ding ding, veline, Janice and Madeline.

Truly without God's grace this year, I could have backslided and leave my gers and become a very bitter person. Ah Pheng pointed out one thing to me, despite all these brokeness I went through, the Lord still enabled me to hold so tightly to Him. And as I began to surrender and die to myself, I became more alive in Him.

For the very first time, my gers gathered and prayed for me, asking the Lord to bless me. I was so touched by their love for me. Thank God for that mann!

For a moment, I really thought that Laopa had forgotten about me when I witnessed all the people being blessed. But now, I chose to believe that the Lord will bless me in His due time. And I prayed that my gers will catch this kairos moment.