my ultimate Hope

Folks, who are constantly reading my blog out there, apologies for taking so long to post one. Reason been quite busy lately, haha went through quite a fair bit of events. Haha especially was on a 70 episode journey into Da Chang Jin's life. Simply amazing and inspirational story which I have learnt so much from this show. I am glad that I can still be so sensitive to Laopa's voice even watching a secular show like this. Hee. Stay tune for the lessons learnt there in the show.

Come to think about it. As long as our walk with Laopa is steady and our hearts are tender, God can use absolutely anything in our life to speak to us. Simply because He allowed or created all these things or situations in our lifes for a purpose to learn His values.

Putting this aside....

Recently, something has been lingering in my mind and causing me to reflect and ponder over my attitude. That is, this thing about some people around me see me as someone who have an ulterior motive. Haha... it seems like what they interpret me as someone who says certain things harbouring certain motives. And this came from people whom I have a heart for and love.

I used to seriously cannot take what these people say and felt extremely upset over their remarks and their judgements towards me. Yeah often, I felt so suffocated over their remarks and their judgements. As in why do they look at me like this?

Over the years, the Lord has taught me so much in this area. I am someone who can easily forgive people, simply because I know it is not right to harbour unforgiveness towards someone and that the effects of unforgiveness will allow the evil one to creep in and destroy my relationship with Laopa.

Therefore due to this fact, i can easily forgive people. But my problem lies in not having the tendency to process my hurts after being judged by them. Yeah, but thanks be to Laopa who always lead us to triumphal procession, He has taught me a fair bit in handling this area.

Of course it is natural tendency to feel hurt when people pour those false comments on me. But each time, I taught of Laopa who never open His mouth when all the false comments and persecutions were upon Him, even when people spat at Him, and all his disciples denied Him.

Everytime I thought of this , I know Laopa allowed all these to prepare me to be stronger and rely Him more so that next time, when the real terrible persecutions set in, I can tahan and yet thank Him for his mercy and grace.

Yeah i used to think why do people around me will see me in this way? I guess this is due to my gifting lah. my gifting of prophectic annointing. People never really like to hear truth because sometimes truth usually hurts their pride. And God allowed all these to happen because in order to be His mouthpiece, I need to learn to not care so much of what other people think of me, and just do His will, even at the risk of misunderstanding from people.

Yeah I prayed for more boldness and courage to do His will.

Reflecting on Brother Yun, in Heavenly Man. One thing that touched me alot, this man understood so much of Laopa's grace even after going through so much persecutions and to the extent of shedding his blood for Jesus. Having starved and tortured for so many days, yet though his body was so torn and his organs are giving way, though facing all the physical pain, he did not deny Jesus and still filled with joy in his spirit, and to think he actually thank the Lord for giving him a chance to bear the persecutions for Jesus. To suffer for Jesus. He felt such a priviledge to suffer for Jesus.

I know it is not this man's strength that sustain him. But the God behind him which gave him the supernatural resurrecton power to contain a thankgiving spirit in the midst of tremendous suffering. It is the mighty hand who carried him throughout all ordeals and adversities and the same mighty hand who carried Jesus to sustain the cross.

Yeah because of this same Hand, I have the hope to live through each small or big suffering. This ultimate hope will carry me throughout the days of my life until I meet Him again. I still want to thank Him for what I am going through because no matter what He will not leave me.