What is heaven to you?

Yesterday, I received an email from my travel agency telling me that my Korea air tickets is confirmed. I will be co-leading a team of JC youth to Korea for skiing. That is not the very thing I look forward to but rather is my extension of my stay after my ski. I will be going with my beloved sister Jesslyn for a Korea holiday.

Somehow I am realli very excited over Korea. Guess I am quite attracted to Korea when I was immersing in those Korean dramas. Such beautiful scenery Korea has. Never realli expect that I will be going to Korea. Really thank God. I was just praying to Laopa that I hope my stay will be extended and I really hope to go sightseeing at Korea. So happy when I knew I can go.

Today, it has been a long time since I do nothing on saturday. Actually I realise due to my heavy job scope, I began to enjoy the luxury of just staying at home and do nothing. To me this is really a luxury. Too bad its already 11.29pm and 1/2 hour more, today will pass away. And sunday is coming. Frankly speaking, I do not really look forward to tomorrow. Because there are more activities to carry out. I wish I can have more rest.

But I am still thankful even it means just a short while, I thank Him I rested. Haha and watching my favourite taiwan drama. Somehow, deep down inside my heart, I know that somehow I wish to run away, run away from everything. Watching dramas like that, will help me to run away temporary. Because when you just watch how the drama unfold and how it developed and for a moment you will forget everything. Forget about the life you having.

Readers out there, please do not be shocked by this confession of mine, I am just being real and I am not some sort of addicted drama freak. Ya, no matter how I want to run away, God will always bring me back, grant me strength to face this world.

I guess that is also why I look forward to go Korea. I yearn to run away from all the tasks at hand and just go and enjoy myself. Hope that it will really be a good getaway. Away from my singapore lifestyle and be mesermerized at other country's lifestyle.

Living in Singapore, in such a big city, sometimes I feel we Singaporeans work too hard. We are constantly stuck in this " do and do and do " mentality. Sometimes, have we really pause for a moment and wonder the actual meaning of doing all these things. Is it some sort of really feeling meaningful about the things we do, or rather to satisfy some kind of gratification in us or to fill up the empitness or insecurity by creating more things to do.

And I also tend to fall into this striving syndrome. Work for results. I wish to have my rest, I wish to stop doing all that I am doing. And just run into the arms of my Laopa, and just be that little girl whom my Heavenly father loves.

Guess my outlook towards life is different now. I pray that this is really the heartbeat of God. Seeking simplicity and feeling contented over what He has given.
Out of a sudden, there is this thought lingering in my head, I want to go into a place where no complications of life, guess that is heaven to me.

I guess heaven is where I am looking for. What is heaven to me? Heaven is a place where God dwells. Heaven to me is a place where I can hide in the arms of my father and be totally immersed in His love. That is heaven to me. This will be more than enough for me.

Then friends reading out there, What is heaven to you? Lets not strive for nothing. Let us evaluate our hearts, are we really doing all that we doing for a sense of purpose that God has bestowed upon us. Or is it just some kind of "feeling important"
when we do the things we are doing now.

What are you yearning for? Are you yearning for a bigger cell group? or a bigger job prospect, or a bigger desired outcome in things we commit to do? These are wonderful blessings from God but surely I hope there is something above all these that you yearn for.

For me I yearn for a bigger God in my life. Not that God is big or small. But rather I yearn for Him to take total preminence in my life. A bigger God's image in me. That is what I yearn for.

Because before you know, all these things will pass away, but only Jesus love will not. Therefore if this is so, why after temporary stuffs which have no eternal signicance but rather let us fix our eyes on Him, the author and perfecter of faith.

Nothing lasts, except His love.